Fitness and self-sufficiency are beyond my reach

The regime of fitness and self-sufficiency is a fantasy that i can never achieve I want to be physically fit and self-sufficient to survive collapses and shocks afflicting the current capitalist system, which centers around the false doctrines of infinite growth and profits. I want to limit my weight to 55 kg. Physical fitness and freedom from life stress are my frequent fantasies. I fantasize about being able to carry heavy loads. Because i am overweight (75 kg), i can only create AI alternates of myself being in those fantasies. The images are edited, but they attract many viewers. The development implies that people want me to get physically fit. I know that exercise and other physical movements must be maintained constantly and by various methods. I know that fitness takes time and effort. The same goes for self-sufficiency. Sadly, negativity rules me all the time. Everything is self-serving and ultimate...